Not A Good Day

From time to time I search the internet for people from my past. Sometimes that turns out great sometimes not. Not the finding them part that is not what I mean. It is what happens when you do find them.

Today I went looking for the Voigt clan. I lived with them for a few years when I was a kid. They were going to adopt me. I found that Debra Voigt had passed away.

There was a time long ago when Debi was my sister. I know I was not the best sister in the world to her and wish I could have done much better at that but our family life was very complicated. I remember the last time I talked to her, I tried to get her to come with me and get out of Rodgers. I hope she had some happiness in her life. I hope she went somewhere better. I hope she found peace. I hope she didn’t suffer. I hope I didn’t fail her as much as I feel I have.

If it takes my whole life
I won’t break, I won’t bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You’ll still be burning so bright

You little sister